me and adison started making this album together when we were living in our room at stanmore road in grey lynn. adi had completed all his parts but before i was able to finish the drums and vocals, we seperated. i completely forgot about it until i found the files several years after his death. it has been an extremely difficult process finishing this without him, watching his hands moving automated effects in abelton, trying to touch it with grace and care, singing over my own voice from several years in the past, before the great change. still in love but with a vile of blood. it has been a long process and trying to find an end point to it felt almost impossible, i didnt want to let it go. i cant hold this anymore though and need to be free of it. so here are most of the tracks we made together.
i hope that you feel the freedom and aroha in this, rather than loss.